I had the opportunity to ask the first question, and my question was, "What do you think about state jails being converted into voluntary rehabilitation centers" and she asked "Are they doing that in Texas"
I just left UTSW, we had a Medical Ethics conference at noon I had planned on going to, that I was a few minutes late for, working on my pilot training and outlining other medical related studies, I went with a habilitation designation for a white coat that I had acquired off of campus, that has been outdated as of the year of my birth, however, some of the studies predated the era, so I wanted to try it with my company, and we discussed whether or not I wanted to include the UTSW logo or Children Medical Center logo, & I really wanted something right now for an upcoming conference that I could wear anywhere, and to go over the foundational aspects with another professional designation, in order to combine the learning from the districts, so Doctorat' Estat, or DrE is what I decided on.
I will be able to pick up my white coat in a week, hopefully before the conference of Texas Higher Education Coordination Board, so I can see what I can go over in my portfolio for generation of education. DrE is a term meaning Doctorate of the State, and it's terms are basically beyond what a traditional PhD entails, if it is something of quality and quantity of self-directed research, not exactly the same as post-doc work, as it has the option of including previous research from publication or data sets, or something entirely new.
For the most part as an educator, when I am asked by parents to assist in something newer that is not what everyone else is doing, in order to reach their children's tastes in how they wish to learn, or if I am bringing market trend of newly reformed medical laws, changes we petitioned for over SEC clauses that hit the mortgage industry back when it was mortgage brokers sufficiently training loan officer, now who are called loan originators, with technology companies licensing out their developments, or outsourcing, incrowd funding, restructuring, rebranding, is another entity than when someone gets down to ethical responsibilities over where do I, my vision, my voice, my company, my corporation, my world, my country, my continent fit in, to leading and working in an environment to reward internal and external factors in an ethical manner that produces responsible growth, and prevents the breakdown of moral, allows innovation to exist without unmotivated inventors of such to veer off in another direction away from their passion, able to match those profits, and equally contribute non-profit resources, hours, manpower, towards the quality of life without suffocating the people who have given so much outside of their family time already, that they do not sacrifice, their dreams, goals, and aspirations, and health to keep their purpose driven in a manner that works all the way around.
Have been promising myself for years that I am going to delegate some of my tasks, and I did get around to one of the colleges and universities career center sites for a recruitment effort, and my immediate need is to stick to the commitment I made to myself to do so, instead of having to give out temp work constantly to business owners who really are not making the referrals they should work in the atmosphere of sharing perk exchanges, I guess is the best way to put it.
Can count 10 bags at my feet right now at my home desk where I should have a clear space with items piled up from conferences and travel, excluding the 14 journals I have handwritten through with notes in classes, that does not include all of the handwritten free paper, some of which I have been told to take on a lower level student to essentially work under me, they mean let me give them my notes, which they would still have to learn on their own, so whether or not it would be something to give they could type up, and I would have to refresh whenever, might be a possibility, some of them I have already written the notes for on the computer, and gone through laptops with.
Did acquire a "diseases of the nervous system" by W.R. Gowers, which is a replica of an earlier edition, and then an actual 1874 edition of a medical textbook that I have not completely gone through yet, just know it is rare and scarce, as well as some of the well know versions were published widely 2 years after.
Cringe when I read the women's section of these older "application for treatment" & some of the imagery of the hypnosis experimentally that did not seem to serve as having a womans rights component to it pre-civil rights movement. In any case, I have a state exam to sit for more than one type of agency, and the fingerprinting place just got me an appointment for one of them.
Went through some df (degrees of freedom) and vectors, search over programming today, it was not successful in finding what I am doing with turning the imagery into simple points and then coding the illustration so I do not have to do something freehand.
I have some other education outlines for actual certificate programing that I meant to send in to some of the research departments.
I stopped by Addison Airport this morning, getting use to figuring out my routine to do pilot training and then on to medical studies, practice, whatever they are wanting us to do with patients. I actually picked up an RN's care for surgery, and realized that it was their manual for what they do with patients during surgery, so while I have no aspirations to be a nurse, I think it is essential doctors understand compassionate care, that in itself is hard to teach, and being a doctor who prescribes medication, or performs interventions with combinations of medicine, surgery, or therapy, or anything has to know when they are taking on too much for compassion fatigue, which I have had before, not just me being agitated by hormones on my period or something that comes and goes naturally around the same cycle every month, but knowing how many events you can handle to fundraise for centers that contribute to assisting children in medical care, or patients that otherwise could not afford to have treatment, giving your own family life a look at with where it is going, what you are valuing with quality time, how your kids are going to live their dreams, go off to college, or what have not for the future of your family, I have a harder time convincing myself that it is ok to move on, and move away from just being a single mom who will work three jobs until I am hospitalized, to a working mother who wants to get remarried and have more children, and needs someone who allows me to keep my obligations that make me happy to serving my community at whatever level, without letting it consume me to where I am deciding to be so busy I throw myself in to work and have absolutely no home life.
To me it is a lifestyle decision as well as a commitment to your happiness and quality of life, where you have to draw boundary lines to have rules set in place for the success of your household as a whole, and theory aspects are not the same as practice, so getting it in writing for what you are wanting to do with your family, how you will provide for your future family. Not really sure where you get to tell yourself that becoming involved with anyone and giving up single status does not mean that it is like giving up your life or independence, that is how I normally feel over the discussion of marriage, I get physically panicked and hyperventilate. Interdependence is a commitment by both parties, and besides using qualtrics to screen people for a character I created for teaching, I have the worst time with depicting men to have the same expectations that I won't share with them, in which case, I end up with in real-life, distancing myself to see what my own intentions and motivations are, so if there is any cognition I recognize of viewing them in the same unrealistic light, or worse, as objects that end up repeating the same scenarios, then it is time I quit living so provocatively from what I desire without giving emotional availability, or I accept the fact of loneliness in it's perils of strength falsely for covering up the courage it takes to commit.
Most people in my age group are marrying for the first time, whereas I have been divorced a good 12 years, so I cannot see myself doing another time around, even with the dating up to the marriage, however long or brief either would be, when I know that what I want is for someone who can handle making a commitment to me and vice versa, with knowing where vows are more than dotted lines, and remedies for human error to not outweigh the work put in to a family life.
Constitution Day is coming up, September 17th, and I did a translation and poster presentation many years ago of it in a few languages. I really miss my son, I sent some things to his school, one of which I handmade, and had meant to give to him, the car accident I was in getting hit from behind in the line at starbucks, threw me off having to stay at home and rest for a week, I guess it was for all the better though, & I am going through to update my resume, to apply for some jobs, as well as get my sites going to accept payment for whatever I can contribute to service.
Have been practicing a mini-speech to the soldiers who are processing out from MEPS. Tomorrow will be an exciting learning day for me, I have Sky Helicopters and Epic Helicopters this week. My AOPA card came in this week! I also got my 99's packet from the Ninety-Nines in Oklahoma.
I got invoices for Baktha Foundation and Aviation Club and Space Society of which I have not heard from the partners who asked me to formulate them.
I went through 2 chapters in aviation that I taught my son somewhat and am uploading for him to use whenever he wants to learn. One of my iphones I am wanting to give to him, seeing what it takes to do that...
Really want to have a daughter and feel that historically a woman in the left seat, and a women in the presidents seat, are some of the most important contributions towards equality we have seen in our time. The political season though feels as if the circus we normally have is amplified by the context of the world never having had a women win a nomination before, so her character as a woman, who does not represent every woman, yet symbolically she does have the only position in history to have obtained a nomination to represent both men and women, and having her being attacked on character translates to, women do not have character, you cannot send a woman to do a man's job, and even though her opponent has the same inquiry over his own character, the tougher ropes of proving you got what it takes when you are at a historical disadvantage from gendercide, women's sufferage, unequal pay, unequal rights, servitude of slavery to a good-old-boys network, some of us who have learned to play as well as men, or to take the place of men, or to act in a man's position, are more exhausted having to give of both roles to satisfy everyone, when that spells burnout from not pleasing the majority, and for being a minority that is rising into having the economical control of households around the country, whether by direct influence, or head of household with income and education, making a pathway for appreciation of those who came before us, and opened doors without glass ceiling to those who are after us, has a traditional disgraced tone for the conservative approach.
Conservative seems to be the only way most of the youth see the older generation, because they do not understand that the rights they have now, someone had to fight for them to be able to have, express, even in the preservation of those who value specific traditions, they are having to fight to keep what they consider conservative values, but those in those groups have the attitude of shunning those of us who were the single moms and put ourselves through schools or went on our own against just taking a free ride, and should we suffer those consequences and have vows to overcome poverty from the statistical norms of women in our category, god forbid we have made our own way, and created out own traditions.
I actually went semi-screaming through the Barnes and Noble line that I am not conservative enough to go to SMU, because I had looked up their ranking on a U.S. News college rating system. They are number 3 in the nation from whatever category of being conservative and I cannot imagine that anyone would care about me wanting to preserve my life with my child there because I had my child alone and outside of marriage, and asked the biological father to marry me a year and a half after he was born, which I then attempted to annul, and was told by the State of Texas I could not do that and needed to file for a divorce.
Either way, I am looking forward to working on having another family with a man other than my ex-spouse. I thought about doing artificial insemination, and I did not like the idea of having to hire a male companion, although in my younger days I had vowed to act out of control behind closed doors the way some of the men did, and now I am just content with the idea of coming home to someone that I have no intentions of hurting and keeping a commitment to not allow events to tear apart a home, or meeting someone with more commonality to tread for an upgrade, and I have gotten to the point where I can say that I can see myself telling myself that I wanted the commitment, because I feared making the commitment the most, and giving into the fact that whoever it may end up being, whether I have my heart set or my mind set on an idea or a man, I have the same issue with making the commitment to keep it and mean it for a duration of time that is significant to me and has to be agreed upon by him.
It is getting rather late and I will have to travel tomorrow somewhat to where I am training so goodnight y'all!