Recently, I was going through my contacts, and one of them wanted me to take a look at "Give An Hour".
I won't go into what context my contact referred the non-profit, but I will say that I am looking into possibly moving back up north where I was born, and this organization covers NY, NJ, and CT hospital people.
I have been in Texas since 1989. My ancestors also founded Texas. Sometimes I feel left out that I was not born here, and maybe I am treated different, but most tell me that since I have been here more than 25 years, I am a Native Texan, and since my ancestors help found it, same thing.
Either way, it doesn't snow very often down here. I miss running into the snow as a young child.
When hurricane Sandy hit the upper coast I was devastated because I remembered my feet on the beach in the sand, and it had washed it all away.
So, how's the weather in Texas, you ask?
I think it's sporadic. It can be sunny one day with warm temperatures, and suddenly change in the next.
To my recollection it has snowed 4 times of record significantly in the past 31 years of my life being here.
I broke up with one of my friends last night. Not that it matters, even if it hurts. I should have stopped trusting both of them in High School when they pointed at me when the press showed up and blamed me for things I never did.
Moving on, I suppose I let go of more than one of my best friends from high school last night too. One of my boyfriends and I travelled to Austin, Texas and back so he could do something & we tried putting him on my lease but it got complicated.
Breaking up can be hard, especially in a pandemic.
My sleep was altered a little last night.
I am scheduled to meet someone for December 28th- Jan 4th in Florida.
I don't know if I will actually go.
I don't travel much outside of Texas on my own, but I am learning.
The United Kingdom shut down due to a new Coronavirus and it broke my heart the day before yesterday.
I am working with something called a "Common App" that allows you to transfer to Universities in their system, some of them for free, some of them for a fee.
I applied to go back to school for my Medical Neuroscience degree. I am not having second thoughts about becoming a doctor, but I am having second thoughts about my healthcare. When I made up my own "hippocratic oath" I had researched some generations before me, and did some stupid writings of my own, and even had a candle in the bathroom. It's really silly. It was a longer time ago than I thought I would be reflecting on.
I am pretty firm in taking responsibility for my thoughts and actions, so my main beef with having to go through some of the rigors of working with doctor's in their respective fields, is, for the record I have, their ability to attempt to script me into any belief that I never held.
I won't make too much of a stink about it.
You know, men have been blaming me for a long time that I am "making them think" but it's rare that I run into men who tell me what I should think, or how I need to think, if it is their line of thinking.
For Hurricane Harvey, I volunteered after having some white coat from a local medical college for about a year and a half, working towards my research side, and said, I am not a doctor yet, but if you deploy me I will treat all the male doctors like they are nurses.
That didn't go over very well.
My military friends who have served, where I have not, are trying to repair my broken ego over the matter. I appreciate their efforts, but it won't change history. It's always his story, isn't it?
I had a psychiatrist ask me about my background for psychiatry. I told him I never looked into any of that, because on the psychology side it was Research and Design, but in truth, I used to be obsessed in reading a diagnostic criteria manual DSM from 1976.
I fell out of love with psychiatry somewhere along the way.
One of the research clinicians, or well someone trying to convince me to follow that path, she and I discussed schools of thought concerning neurofeedback, which I am a fan of. I have a silly list in one of my school system folders titled "ADHD, Brain Imaging for Therapeutics, ExeCutive FunTheory, Neurof & Schizophrenia or Bipolar, Neurofeedback & PTSD, NeuOptimal, Nf & Addiction, NF & Criminal Justice, NF & TBI, NFt & Phanton Pain, Occipital Theory, etc"
Was collecting journal articles and taking educated guessed for brain functioning processes in specific populations.
I was really happy to hear that vaccines are here.
Guess I need to do some maintenance and applications to see where I am going from here.