Hey Readers! I am still looking for a few references to give to the Texas Real Estate Commission. Please contact me if you can provide something :)

Asked to be taken off of MEPS at the Dallas Station to deploy with the Red Cross for the Natural Disaster & so far have gotten 7 certificates in order to be trained for staying a few weeks.

​In between the training courses, I am writing thank you cards for everyone who was on the committee with us for the dinner fundraiser at the Dallas Country Club with Les Femmes Du Monde. There was a very handsome man with Albert Einstein hair I took notice to there :P

​I am in San Antonio over the weekend & I have been uploading my photos to the secret access part of this site that requires a password so that I can document the events I have attended for fundraisers or education.

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I have to say that the third presidential debate was ruined for me in a number of ways, specifically, having to sit through the second debate. I actually had a teacher come up through my news feed, and have a discussion with his middle school students over why everything from the second debate was inappropriate. It made me think about how perhaps I did not want to watch the third debate at all. For the third debate, I thought about inviting a date, the dates who tried to come to the second, one in particular, got nervous talking to me at a book store and ran off and then tried to invite me to dinner, without telling me why he ran off before we watched the debate at the Alamo Draft House in Richardson, Texas. I watched all three debates there, I enjoyed the first one, the second one infuriated me, and the third one, I politely apologized for leaving early, I did not enjoy my son being suspended from school, taking off of work to speak to him and find out how we are going to prevent him from having anything else come up like this in the future, but also, there was this nagging sense of- what kind of an example am I if we have school teachers telling kids that the second debate was not civil enough for their viewings, and that I am having to explain why a Presidential Candidate should not be questioned over why he feels it is his inalienable right as a man to grab a woman's vagina, because he is a celebrity.

​During the Al Smith Dinner, Donald J Trump, stated that he doesn't do real estate much anymore. I myself have let go of all of the books that he had written or co-sponsored through the Learning Annex, and the Real Estate Wealth Expo, because of the rhetoric throughout his campaign, and part of me somewhere was hoping that he would be able to stick to issues & see past himself, do some greater good besides photo-ops with state of emergency situations like he did in Louisiana, where I have mainly said that he has no appearances with him actually helping people, especially poor people, as if I am waiting for him to be Elon Musk on the Big Bang Theory and actually work in a soup kitchen to give back on national television during these debates, but thus far, it was sentimental for him to describe having always been at the Al Smith dinner with his father, and why it was to support the needy children of the Arch-Diocese. His humor became somewhat dark and he was booed at times, but overall I think his ego has taken the most being hit having to go through a Presidential election. Hillary Clinton, came back with some humorous things about how Donald would see the Statue of Liberty as a 4, maybe a 5 if she lost the crown and tossed her hair, lost the torch and tablet, and tossed her hair.

​I do think that Al Smith would be proud that both candidates, have been friends and known each other a long time in the past, and that while it was stated that it was the most viscous fight in any Presidential History, a record breaking $6 net dollars was raised at the awards dinner, which is a great gesture for good-will, charity, and salvation towards bettering the lives of those in need, but I just want to reiterate, that even if Trump would have come up and been Robin Williams, a professional comedian that would have filled the room with laughter, it would not have erased having to explain to needy children, why they should not fall victim to sexual predatory behaviors, just because some guy flashes expensive things in front of them.

​Or because their mentality is that if they are a celebrity, it means that they can do whatever they want with children or with women behind closed doors and only if they get caught, do they have to be forced to give an apology and consider it locker room talk.

The self-procured notion, that your wealth is preeminent to everyone else around you with based on not even proving who you are, such as not releasing your tax records, so that the rest of the world can see where you put your money where your mouth is, your core beliefs of who you are supporting financially and for what, whether it is for tax write off, or whether or not you are shielding yourself from public scrutiny over who owns you, is not a mysterious thing, it is just a branding technique for those who want to make money off of a public figure so they can quietly accumulate whether it is in the shadows or not, it is at the private investors discretion over how they get benefits from Trump running for president, the same way that he has shamed her for her Clinton foundation.

​Regarding Haiti, I think his comment was more derogatory, and I am pretty saddened and sour over his wanting to build a wall between Texas and Mexico, and I feel that his feeling proud of $6 Million raised in someway he feels that these dinners are replacements for 6 Million lost, or 6 Million stolen, or 6 million tortured in the Holocaust, and I am not saying that because he is at a Catholic dinner, he is not Catholic, and even if he were, most Catholics have a better understanding now post WWII over what is appropriate regarding the historical context of the holocaust. I had to explain to a business man who felt he was more like Trump last night that Trump was not Catholic. Seeing him at a dinner with the Archdiocese, does not make Trump catholic, and I explained to him that he considers himself a Protestant, and he kept saying no he is Catholic, and finally that Hillary Clinton was probably going to win & that she was more like Robin Hood, and then he grilled me with wanting to know where all of my money came from, his misquoted his own property value, but I did not say anything to him, having known him a few years, that I am aware he is targeting younger women and doubling for flashing around the amount he wants his home to be because he is in a gated community, when it is not actually listed as worth that, so it's kind of like, he is up in my face saying I am not sexy because I won't have sex with him, I am not a good housewife, what am I good for? I ask him if he has a life plan, and he starts to yell at me that I have no life, I am worth nothing, I will never amount to anything and that I have no future, and that he has in all of his glory a business with cars that supports his million dollar home, yet he doesn't list any of that when it comes up for appraisal because of course it is smarter not to pay taxes, or to put taxes in multiple names of different people, so that his ex-wives cannot attack him in court, or whatever his drama may be, even though his kids, most of them except the one he cheated on his wife with that may or may not be full grown, are all college graduated. He only values how he sees himself to be, and doesn't want anyone to know his worth unless it is he who is telling you what to believe.

http://www.usip.org/events/introduction-conflict-analysis 68.3% is my highest rating here, so I have not gotten enough for a certificate, but I have been trying I want to say at leave 8 times to have taken the test, I am so busy, and have had to stop and start again going over the literature and going through the concepts.

I will say this about the dinner, as I am reviewing it, and it took me two days to officially review the 3rd debate because I hesitated after a teacher came up in my news feed taking the kids off of it, that I wanted to adopt a child I met in one of the orphanages in Romania and Hungary when I traveled with Hillel, the JDC, etc, and I would not want to bring a child to American under having to live in between conflict with a bitter ex should we ever separate if we had any sort of arrangement, which is why it is easier for me to see myself as a single mother who can be a provider, that to see myself falling blindly into a relationship that will tear a child up from not having resources should we split and part, so it is more difficult for me to accept help from private individuals because I want to be the person that prevents someone else from controlling the outcome of a child a need negatively if they should tire of me or of helping another human with me or through me.

I generally think that Trump would show himself to be a bigger man by stepping down as being an actual gentleman, something I do not think he has ever known how to do his entire life, because he is obsessed with competition and winning, and would lose everything to play again. Either way I suppose he moved down the street from the White House so he will live close to his friend Hillary should she be elected and that himself he has stated means that he is still winning and has not lost, even if he loses the election.

​I am happy that the Cardinal at least felt there where some tender moments in which Donald told Hillary he thought that she was one tough lady, and Hillary told him no matter who wins or loses we need to work together afterwards.

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So I have never formally asked communication from anyone who reads my blog before, but I am searching for anyone who finds that I have these qualities and thinks that I have these qualities despite having accepted a charge for drug possession over my then adderral, instead of going to rehab, and thinks that I should be allowed to hold my real estate license active again.

​I called the doctors office that treated me without drugs when I was done with my sentence, but I am more curious to know who reads my blog that finds that I would be qualifying to them to get their letter of reference in regards to having these qualities.

​Any help is appreciated, please email me at apearsonhaas@cougarmail.collin.edu, andrea.ph@utdallas.edu, or apearsonhaas@smu.edu & send me a text message/call 469-226-6834 that you sent a letter of recommendation reference in regards to why I have 1. Trustworthiness 2. Honesty 3. Integrity, and mention that you are aware that I had possession of my prescriptions and that I got charged for it, and that I wanted to do jail time instead of rehab as well as a DWI.

​Also, if you were a member of congress that got my tax-free books audio, or letters over changing the law for those who have possession on their first offense, please let me know if you are in the same office position, if you are no longer a member of the senate or house in Texas, what you are doing now, which party affiliation you have, I love both Republicans and Democrats, I listen to Independents and loved it when Perot ran that way on the ticket, and I am sort of understanding of what libertarian, I am not sure if I have written to or met any public officials in that arena, I know I have at least met some that identified that way.

​If y'all also have any updates over what happened with any of those law changes we participated in raising awareness for with criminal justice reform, I would be interested in knowing where we have given alternatives towards non-violent criminals, which is how I have been classified, and if you have read my previous article, I apologize for feeling so strongly and upset over the video taping incident, and I do understand that it is hypocritical for me to ask someone to give me a reference over me having any amount of trust, honesty, or integrity, having been convicted for possession of drugs, and a DWI, even though I do not drink anymore, and I am not on any prescriptions, I am more concerned with how you can logically apply why I need to be overlooking the time frame from his philosophy as a 59 year old adult man- which I will give you the starting point for- our brains are adaptable, so they can change, which means that I am not going to hold one event as an accountable entirety that Trump himself is deplorable or incapable of changing, which I am not saying, I am saying that, it would mean more to me if you could convince me how you have seen me change if you knew me then versus you know me now, or if you have confirmed with others who dealt with me then, that perhaps we no longer keep up to date, in how my actions now outline the worthiness of a license, when I myself have my own accountability record for years dated and passed shortly of the same time frame that he has, if not more than 11 years ago.

​I appreciate your feedback no matter your status, religion, monetary bracket, race, gender, background, political affiliation, for me or against me, yes I am wanting 3 letters of recommendation, but I am also wanting to know why you would, should you be in the position to defend Trump's tape being so long ago, dismiss it, and not the charges that I have.

​I have not found a way to use the DWI tape that I got from the police to distribute it into an awareness do not drink and drive video, but the attorney who represented me did get me a copy, so I might now have the software to cut it and do it myself, I can just say that I encourage all women to trust their instincts when they do not want to go out, and in my situation, I went against that, and I paid consequences for that.

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I do not see myself being fit for President as a Misandrist. Misogyny is what we see with justifying sexual assault, and so the same would apply if I decided that I was going to blame all of my problems on men, and take no responsibility for my actions. Saying things like men have a predisposition to being misogynists, is like saying all women want to be raped. Women do not have a predisposition to being raped, based on what they wear, when men are already predators like Donald Trump and feel justified in grabbing women by the vagina.

That is the thing about rape and sexual assault to begin with, it is not about love, it is not about attraction, it is about control.

​I was raped by a supervisor at a telemarketing company shortly after being emancipated by the State of Texas after being a missing and exploited child. I started working legally as an adult at the age of 16, which required me to have a guardian because I was not old enough to sign contracts.

​Being locked in an apartment for 6 weeks to tell a kidnapper who convinced a few of the girls in our group to leave their families behind and start a new life in the adult entertainment industry, some of these girls were 14 and 15, was an experience that haunted me, especially when the guy got out of prison and targeted me through other people to find me, and initially I did not remember him, I only remembered that the girl who took me to the border and across to Mexico, had my truck stolen the night before, and on the way back we got stopped, and afterwards, she asked me if I knew this guy, and I said his name sounded familiar and then she took me to him in another city, where he told me that he got 2 years of prison time for his stint and wanted me to work with him to sell ads, and that I was too old for him now because I had hit 21, which was his joke, and he said that he finally got what he always wanted a young naïve 19 year old to marry a 40 year old man to be obedient to and dependent on and easily controlled.

​There were rules with the way that the girls were distributed behind closed doors or behind bullet proof glass and picked out like dogs in lingerie and taken to the back room. If they looked at another man (here meaning a pimp) the man/pimp had the right to approach them and speak to them, and if they spoke back they had the right to take them home and work them. If they were minors, they were charging $1500 an hour for the meetings, but there were rules about how they did that too, because they would not give the girls any money, they wanted them to come ask them for it, and they were really specific over using it as a means of control so that they could keep them working. None of the girls were independent, which is what an entertainer or an actress would call it being allowed to collect their own dues and determine their work, some of them were drugged, I put mustard in one of their ears and the police thought the guy was following us around homeless at the Galleria Mall, which I found hilarious. He stuck his tongue in my mouth and tried to kiss me once and his tongue was rough probably from doing drugs, and I did not like it. He was probably in his 40s as well, the main organizer was 28, and the guy was his older brother.

​In any case, I once tried to through the TV out of the window to escape and one of the girls lied and said that I was trying to drown myself swimming because I was drunk. She did not want to return home because she said she was making too much money, and her father paid for a private investigator to find her and they asked me for their phone number whenever I got back home to my father's, whom the FBI had already taken the computers and stripped them to see if they could find anything, the girl had gone through my email where I protested to him online that I did not want to be involved in anything relating to them taking girls and trafficking them basically.

​I did not get raped, and was only isolated for the 6 weeks until I stole a limo sort of, I told one of their clients we were minors and convinced them to let me borrow their car to take back to the greyhound with one of the girls, I ended up on the amber alert system, and one of my best friends whose mother I had emailed to say we were no longer in Texas when we really were, has MS, a debilitating disease of the brain with deterring white mater, assisted with the FBI coming to the apartments to find us but I had did not give the apartment number details, we ran and I got to take one of the girls with me, and then there was so much press activity at school and fingers pointing at me for it being my idea when I was the one who said don't go, they had chose to go without me and so I hopped on board at the last minute because I knew that they didn't know him and had never met him, and I expected them to come home, we promised to be gone 3 days to see how it was, because he promised that he would be taking care of anything to them, and it turned into a manhunt for us, and we were extremely lucky to be alive after all was said and done.

​I know that both of the girls had sex with him, I had not hit puberty yet at this time, they were more developed, and so since they had larger breasts, they were more sellable he would say, and they would act at first like they were competing for him to be his top girl or something.

​The supervisor from the telemarketing company was married, and I had a crush on him, but I was in a relationship with my then boyfriend and now ex-husband who identified the rape when I did not know, because the hospital had to tell me that I was drugged with GHB. I remember meeting him and the guy from the office for drinks, I was 16 at that time, I lived down the street from him at my guardian parents house, and my guardian brother begged me not to go out with him. My boyfriend at that time was furious and accused me of cheating on him. I told him I did not know what he was talking about because I had not had sex with anyone, and he said that he could feel it. They took photos of my insides and said that my vagina reacted like a wall during the rape from the guy who drugged me and went at it, and since they found GHB in my system that was why I could not remember.

​Fast forward to years later when I took a stranger home from a bar, who held me down and raped me and told me that there was something wrong with me because I told him to wear a condom, I was not on birth control at the time, he was irate and I screamed for him to let me go, and took a photo of his license plate which he caught me doing, and I tried to tell him that I wanted his phone number to call him later, he told me no, that he did not want me to call him or see him again, and then as I was trying to drive away, he jumped in my vehicle and told me that I was not going to tell anyone anything. Detective Ahren's was the investigator over the case, and he told her that he did not remember the incident, just that his penis didn't work. I spent a few weeks scrubbing myself, I visited the hospital to rule out aids and be tested for STDs, and to make sure he did not leave any unwanted semen deposits, which I would have aborted. I went to counseling, I had an administrator at a college bring up the incident during their testing center and apologize, but it ruined my semester if not my whole year there, and I went in for therapy after breaking down, and forgiving him and the classmate that asked me for 4 months to go to that bar, but remembering that, his view of something being wrong with me and him not wanting to wear a condom, has no place for me to think or feel that it is ok because this is what women are for, which to me was a very scary part of going through cognitive behavior therapy, after listening to men who held those views.

​When I was in the third grade, I had a boy try to kiss me, when I was in a physical corner. I ended up racking him in the balls, to where his parents sued the school for not watching us, because they tried to sue my parents, and my father told them to f-off it constituted as self-defense. The boy lost his ability to have children after trying that with me. We were between 7-9 years of age I suppose at the time, the boy was a larger boy in a higher grade, and I remember I was worried about my head hitting the back of the hangers and had no way out around him as he tried to get on top of me to force a kiss. For a Presidential Candidate to have made his life's fortune merely on image, and justifying that image as allowing him to act as a sexual predator, it brings up a lot of issues over how we address with our children what to do when someone forces themselves on them, and here, especially if they are public figures in positions of power, that all children, and adults, anyone that these figures feel humans are subordinates of, regarding how to keep our people safe, involved in any interaction, whether it is online, in person, or through third parties.

​I am deeply disgusted and appalled, if not somewhat enraged, over processing what Mr. Trump displayed about how it is men's God-given right to grab women, that when you are a star you can do anything, and someone that I once considered a business man that I looked up to in the real estate industry, I have to say that I am breaking up with Trump, and I am no longer using any of his teachings, which some include what we may have learned in the Art of the Deal, & I did not even think it was shocking for his tax-code, it was his attitude of thinking that he is smarter than everyone else but not showing them how to do the same thing that he has done, that prohibits the wealth distribution that is needed for others to raise out of poverty, or for the middle class to achieve upper class and vice versa.

​For me, his market with the Miss USA and Miss Universe pageants, target 14-26 year old females, as in girls, teenagers, and young women, and his philosophy to date them when they are 30, and drop them when they are 35, carries out into some of his policies should he become President. I cannot image the entire United States of America, having to conform to Trump's idea of beauty over brains, and why he is trying to convince the public that in 18 months of being on a campaign trail, it makes up for 69 years of his misogynist views. I recognize that being a misandrist, is not an effective way to maintain healthy relationships, and that historically since women have been viewed as inferior, I was wanting to explore the same hatred misogynists had, which by the way, I have done on both sides, so I have also held views that women need to be the support system for man and not head of the household, and the conclusion that I myself have come to is that whether you are male or female with misandrist or misogynist values, they are both extremes, they do not counter part the other, they only show a way of being with rage and anger.

All I see with his previous market is an entertainment mongrel that was able to legally force prostitution with arbitration contracts of beauty, and sell it to a mass public. Now I am biased in being someone who has survived it, been forced to watch it, targeting when the guy got out of prison for going to jail over exploiting minors. For Trump though, his saying that if you have power you can do anything, is something that at first, to be honest, I was not shocked over, I expected that from him, but what was worse, is that I expected it to be acceptable to the public, because part of me expects that men like him have an excuse to say that they are allowed to do so, until I applied those principles that he has built his fortunes on, and asked myself, what has everything he stood for in this campaign excuse this one time behavior. Then I realized that even thought I have openly said I am biased that I want a woman President, there was part of me that said- I also want to learn how to have wealth like Trump, I want to believe in him, and then it was not a one time incident, it was his whole way of life, and what he represents works for him, but to me does not work for America.

​I am more concerned in knowing who owns Trump. Trump doesn't own himself, he has spent years with foreign partners that he may very well be keeping quiet because he doesn't want the hypocritical questions over who invests in our diplomacy as well as supporting terrorism- you don't know without going through all of his business dealings, and for those of his arrangements within entertainment that there is a do not disclose non-disclosure agreement, it is only for him and his friends who are partners which really spells communism, The same way that I had a former broker teach me that Facebook, is a tool that supports you being with your friends, if you only sell to your friends, you are not being apart of democracy.

​I understand that Trumps only motive is to win this election, regardless of whether or not the things he does and says actually represents the American People, or if his displays are harmful towards women, minorities, judges that have an education, just because Trumps main component for qualification is not how to make the economy diverse openly, he only is able to show that he cares for people who are objects within the entertainment industry, and anyone else that opposes him automatically does so if they are not for him. Forget it if they say they are not for either of them, it will come back to being only about Trump.

​Do I think that Hillary Clinton should be unable to be President because her marriage had a falling out? Initially I wanted the mentality that if you can do it, I can do better.

​When Hillary is in the oval office- where are the interns? Her turn. That is what I felt outraged that he lied to the American People. This is not a trial over Bill's time in office though. If you are going to look away from Trumps statements 11 years ago, you are going to have to quit bringing up her husband's past, when it is her credentials that are being evaluated for this election, just as Mr. Trumps it.

​This is not a couples battle in the White House, where Bill and Melania are at the podium defending their spouses.

​I am only going to address how traumatic it was for me to piece together the underlining meanings of the video tape and being brought up by Anderson Cooper, who did a great job in getting it out of the way and tried to make Trump accountable for his actions that he deflected and did not acknowledge, no Corporate Social Responsibility there, but also that both media modulators tried to take the heat out of the debaters and redirect it to the audience who I am sure was absolutely petrified from asking questions.

​I did not feel that it was at all a Town Hall meeting, I felt that it was a battle between the sexes. I think I can count 6 people perhaps that spoke up and got to ask questions and I am not sure if that included the audiences questions, but for over an hour of live television, there should have been more issues and questions answered.

​Let me also apologize for any preconceived notions that men speak that way in their locker rooms, that I may have believed, and let me thank all of you who raised this important issue and spoke out against it not bring the norm, so that those of us who have survived sexual assault feel safer knowing, there are men who care about something other than grabbing genitalia.

​Also know, that my own child, who was forced to speak out against me in name calling, knows that his mother is going to force him to clean up horses&(^, for every day he has degraded and dehumanized her, so that he learns that even if he gives into peer pressure, he will have to face consequences.

​Breaking up with Trump consisted of me giving away items that I had read of his publications, putting away misandrist beliefs and exhausting that I may not find a man who is exactly equal to me to spend the rest of my life with, but I recognize, especially having overcome PTSD, that while I may think godly too much so for any man, I am actually wanting to be able to trust my partner for a commitment that would be in both of our best interests, so that, it is not an uneven power struggle for the next whatever years, should I ever remarry, and start a new family.

​I strongly feel that anyone who thinks 250,000 people, such as the ones who live in Aleppo, should not have an attitude to "Let Aleppo Fall, it has already fallen", because it goes against teachings of prevention of genocide, and does nothing for us as what we have learned from the Holocaust.