I recently had a meeting with someone that is doing Global Health Management, and is going to become a hospital administrator, & I myself have been concerned with the pandemic being over, and everyone feeling like things are getting back to normal.

Before the pandemic, I ventured into creating a global presence for different businesses to do different activities in foreign countries besides all of the American, and Texas where I normally live, countries.

Watching the countries shut down and go into a crisis mode, I felt completely in unchartered waters, as a global pandemic of any magnitude has been over a 100 years. So I thought about the "Great Depression" when the stock market collapsed, and then I thought about, how we have had other pandemics, such as the flu, or plagues, and I really felt like we have invested so much in relying on technology to answer everything that we should have been prepared to do everything faster and have the answers before the disease become prevalent. 

I didn't understand that you can't just take the genome of the human race, and put it through a computer, and come out with a vaccine for a pandemic before it occurs.

We live our lives with so much automation to replace the human experience, that we sometimes think that artificial intelligence and automation is a replacement for the human experience and condition to feel human, when we have lost so many things that we took for granted like interacting with our communities face to face in reality instead of virtually, so the definitive becomes questioned with how much can we as a collective human race take from witnessing all of the deaths and tragedy from a pandemic, the economy being forced to shut down, and why, why, why, why,////..... why did we have to do it in the first place? Why didn't we have an answer before there was a question?

Certainly we have had time to ponder so many different scenarios for doomdays pandemics with unknown variables, that we could have just had one specimun, even the one doctor that rang the alarm on discovering the virus, and replicated it and created it's counterpart without any deaths.

I think that is the hardest thing to understand.

Why do we have to listen to a bunch of doctors and governments keeping us safe?

When will it be over?

When will we not have to practice social distancing?

When will we be able to travel freely to any country?

How much time will we take online or offline and what will be the outcome of the changes in the workplace and work force?

We survive together, because we stay connected as much as we can, so we don't have to feel so alone in the longer sense of time.

No one invited me to give out information about COVID-19 through my media company, people just asked that I shared what I could about getting vaccinated and social media outlets about safety measures.

I intend to contemplate why humans cannot be immortal, so I tend to internalize death, by not being able to let humans go, so the pandemic for me anyways didn't just ruin all of my plans on going global- it sent a shock wave to every global community, and we are going through the motions of an aftermathed type of a scenario with how we are picking up the pieces of our communities, taking care of ourselves and others, & so on.

Seeing the world online my whole life for the most part living in Texas, it never occurred to me that some of the world wouldn't be waiting or available from what I was planning to do, see, hear, taste, smell, and experience in other states with the United States and other countries around the world.

Time feels like it was stolen from all of us due to the on going pandemic from unknown origins, and yet then it froze in a sense where we were helpless, we were hopeful, we are supposed to be resilient and the masters of our domain and dominion among all the animals in the planet.... but I just can't imagine what we are leaving future generations to look back at us in this moment in time and wonder or research and find out how we survived, if we survived, and what we did with ourselves and others in going local from being global, and how we get back to connecting globally, locally, if we are socially distanced for the time being, how long it takes and how much it breaks our human spirit, to appreciate the air we breath, the people and places we see, travelling, having clean running water and electricity and food.

I am picking up the pieces of me that are my broken self and putting them back together and struggling to feel at home with so many unknown variables.

I get fatigued, I get a little burned out, but not too much and too often like when I was younger and thought I could take on anything. Now I am slower to anger, I am cautious to make decisions that will impact me and everyone around me, I am reflecting, I am rejecting that we will live in a state of death indefinitely through a pandemic or a plague, or emergency, or tragedy, or restrictions, & I could use some hopeful and wishful thinking put into actions as plans and goals instead of dreaming.

It starts with a single step. We all have to figure out, how we are going to take our own, together, individually, and with "Conscientiousness", something I learned from a little old girls/woman's club meeting.

For mental health self-care, I have recognized that it is ok to cry when you need it, and to get as much sleep as humanly possible even if you are glued to your devices to answer every call/page/text/email whatever on an ongoing emergency or regular basis.

I have been reaching out to family whenever possible, work school connections, and planning out what to do and what I can do to contribute to myself and future generations, should they ever experience having to go through a nightmare in pandemic healthcare.

I have stopped caring about people harassing me or attacking me online or threatening me online, if there is not a guy with a gun coming towards my room (which actually happened) trying to shoot my dog for barking, I am not going to keep responding to online attacks and break down crying from rumors and gossip. They are not here in person. I have been choosing to reconnect with feeling human touch sometimes, and especially books and nature- although I wasn't raised to stay in the sunlight unless I had sunscreen, and I have silenced naysayers who tell me to get rid of my dogs or my ideas, and I have decided that I am moving forward with what I am doing, and not letting others decide what is right for my life.

I am checking my health more often and wanting to help others whenever I can. I am planning on getting pregnant again and being married at some point, even if I do not have all of the answers figured out, and I am not giving up on others or myself, I am rejecting inhumane treatment, I am writing down my fears and countering them. I am eating healthier whenever possible, I am comparing myself to myself and no one else for my own growth with what my life plan ought to be.

I am thankful for whoever is reading my articles and blogs and finds some usage in them.

Thank you for your time.

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I am really designing the apps from the conceptual side and then having someone else code, from either my designs, or the mathematics. 

The following apps have a listed purpose with an explanation as to what I am doing, and all of them have patent provisional status, meaning that when my patents get filed within the year, I will have them patented.

This article was originally drafted in 2017.

I am also looking into keeping sensitive topics for view only with an access key on my site, but I started doing that at school, and then wasn't sure how to modulate other's that wanted access depending on their region.

Back to the where I began at this article writing 4 years ago- I have taken very few cryptography self-studies, and had a Community college A average in computers concerning literacy and so forth.

I spent a small portion of my time studying linguistics and understanding the history of languages, so, when I speak about coding, I do not try to pass myself off as a computer programmer- someone who has a full fledged degree in coding through computer applications, so when I talk about being the mastermind between founding an app conceptually that has to be coded- I mean it in the very literal sense and keep it separate from some of my business that I worked towards in creating, concerning "codes" that are not specific to computers coding, it is more of a multi-step process of each individual's conception towards their own codes, with their own secret-key, as a human applicant

So I do not tout that I am the genius behind the processing part of creating the hardware when it comes to automation in blockchain forms- although I did purchase www.chainblock.red (which is simply me being sarcastic in everyone's obsession with BLOCKCHAIN, and then I joined the two words together in opposite fashion)

Most of my Music is certified through a Blockchain process on a place called SoundSecure.com

I have to double-check a lot of my international business purchases to venture into places around the world, because some of my online translation when I did it through a third-party search engine (I am not going to tell you which) and then some online directories, translated for instance, something in a different language, where I was buying into creating an application for a trademark of "Protect Trust" in their language, and it came out as "I Love You" which was not what the original translation & from the texts gave meaning depending on the dialect and literal context, or someone just thought that was funny and did it in the middle of me translating it myself without assistance, therefore, while it was humorous to other people that I thought I bought one portion of what I was making in that particular country through their native language, it was what we consider a learning experience, and that is why you have to be careful & make sure that someone doesn't change things that you are meaning to do in other countries where you are not a citizen, and then into their language, without your knowledge

On top of that, when you quit studying certain languages your area in your brain loses some of that over time since your brain is also a muscle, so...

I am at a loss not being a Native in other countries for their languages and keyboards in their original tongue in a sense, but at least I can see where I spent my money trying to do the start up thingies when I was venturing out, so I can be more congruent in literature literally in the literal sense before I do not have everything set up properly and create the error.

I now also do not know if my car was washed away or if it is there where it was waiting to be fixed or to be transported back to Texas.

I haven't had time to call because I was away a few weeks working where I could not be reached, and got some feedback over some music I tried to spin into making cool from a mediator perspective that was unsuccessful, a college employee was enthusiastic about me creating it, but while most of it came out such as chemistry enough to an expert to understand the proceed for the medical sciences, the imitation for the melody sarcasm came across as probably somewhere in between violating a geneva convention, and trying to make Insane Clown Posse love the FBI while stealing background music from EMINEM & paying off Dr. Dre;s daughter's car payment La Tanya Danelle Young because he quit speaking to her, all at the same time- so it's kind of a no-go, plus I don't have the equiptment to do anything illegal on the dark web for what some of these hackers do in Torrenting, but I did post about it on Linked in, & then apologized to anyone that was a burn victim or a survivor of anything that needed the Geneva convention, for my suggestion, even thought it was not made public the way I was going to include it in it's entirety, I didn't realize what tpye of a safety issue it actually was is someone who was not trained in safety took me literally, and I was talking with people who also had to live through being told misinformation for what some of us already new about misusing chemicals, so I have to go back and reedit it and copywrite it with a little less flare that could harm someone from misinterpretation

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I have more than one business. This is a site that was requested to be apart of the public domain, by an official. Most of the content that is not user friendly for children from this point on will be password protected and available by membership only, with certain precaution and verification.

The same is occurring with my music- I intend to distribute albums online only, and I cannot export music in digital files, so if I do any products for exporting, it will be tangible items, that I may or may not use under my own brand name.

Filing for a trademark, I have started that process, but I have not had enough for a patent, or multiple filings, nor have I requested commercial credit for business. Instead I met with trusted people and entities, who have official documents from me, that is their eyes only, as far as timelines that may or may not change, but overall, general sections concerning "financial goals" have been authorized for their viewing, but not distribution.

In the midst of searching for financing, I thought of the horrors that ensured pre-2007 when I left the financial world as a provision loan officer first, and then a commercial real estate agent second, learned a thing or two about taking on financial risks as an investor instead, and I am developing a app that uses mathematics in a way to assist the human in investing, so I contacted the SEC while I was in DC, through their Women's and Minorities division.

It is completely separate from my PHDApp, that is meant to populate topics concerning dissertations, or give a general guidance over college, and post-college, to populate information or a doctoral suggestion, of where to go for your degree. Mainly, I see this one as a fun app that you can play with if you are thinking of doing a PhD education, or getting a second one. Within it is a concept for a reduced value PhD certificate type of an arrangement through educational institutions, and I want to stress that my work for the app is for profit, but I do not stress that you should have a for-profit only education, and I feel that non-profit educational structures for America, are most correct, in separating powers from church and state, the same way that churches are for the most part non-profit entities, and the same for government establishments as those that fall under those categories.

I have a small exposure to observing statisticians who are my parents over the years, where I developed a love for math, but I chose a degree in Neuroscience initially because I had feelings for a friend who never wanted children, so our compatibility would never be a good fit, since I want more kids. In any case, my mother has a math degree, and I have taken classes in mathematics but really participated in things like math club where I was always in love with the mathematician, and not always the mathematics. So I decided in my spare time to do my own mini-mathematics theories, which some was interrupted by people saying that I did not realize I was doing physics at times. My math proofs will probably not be worth of a fields award, and RIP to the first woman who got there and lost her life to cancer. I believed for an extended period of time, that math was an essential component and key to curing things like cancer. I really thought, if you get enough mathematicians in the room, you can figure out how to stop cell proliferation, by simply writing a math equation to get the exact measurement of combating the disease.

My proof will probably be disregarded as another thing floating around in the math world, that a woman, such as myself, who on many occasions has been accused of making men think, with a low-level intelligent design, from not having as a solid education in the PhD I wanted in statistics as a child when I first planned to graduate with a PhD in stats when I turned 24, at the age of 12, I would go through the catalog with my father to pick out my grad courses.

So since I had a kid outside of a marriage, my mother explained to me that college was not the best environment during that time, in reality, I walked around for years with an upside down crown, outcast from never living up to church expectations, when I would question every word of God regardless, as all scientists should in their science, so that people are not persecuted for religious beliefs involving extremism, from any particular line of "faith"- I say that with sarcasm, that anyone would need to feel as if wiping out someone based on their interests, religion, political affiliation, race, is a very ignorant thing, the same as requirements for you to change everything about yourself to be accepted only by a particular group under obligation or banned from practicing within the acceptance of those groups that promised you a life commitment through whatever supernatural belief was established following their religious leader.

So while I do not expect my math to correct religious sects from accepting people outside of their social circles, I do expect that the boundaries of math are something that humans control, and that humans should not be numbering people to burn them to death, or using languages involving the expression of faith being a "converting" effort, as only numbers can be converted, humans should never lose or gain value from "religious conversions" exclusively, as that, what I mean in their value of feelings or economic establishment for self-worth, should not be a majority of false promises believing that the superiority complex of one particular religious group, would cause you to have economical freedom only from joining their group- you can have an economic status free from "religious converting" as man/woman, people came up with the concept of money, and placed higher value over a belief in a type of God rendering a system without putting money above the place of human value. That is my only pet peeve. 

So back to this app, I have not coded since high school, SMU has a bootcamp and I do not know if they are going to put me in that class, it is a night class, and it allows you to do rigors of coding in a short period of time, and I am needing to hire people for all of my business, in a manner that requires a less risky capitol requirement of saying hey can I have a little for me here and there, I have to work with an accounting firm to establish the flow of capital to individuals who work with me, for which I have composed at least an overview of a math equation to sigmatize and not stigmatize my peers, co-workers, employees, whatever.

The open dissertation app, is not a collection of stat data but would use it in a way that correlates with assisting the customer with choosing their own concept for a PhD. I have no idea how successful it will be, if it will flop, but since it is more of an open courseware format, part of it is free to obtain, and the other part my company would request payment for the results.

The financial app, I have registered here and in the UK, for which I have no intentions of influencing policy, so I will be only having partners and learning a little about their economical system- I do not have any aspirations for being a dominant presence in their market, I just expect to make enough to help people where I can pay for my own visits to the UK- as in it is a tax write off business expense, and I am not travelling solely for personal means.

Also developing is a fashion app that assists in finding fabric patters with recognition, and I won't get into too many others that might confuse my readers, as far as which are for what industry.

No banks have my signatures on any business loans YET, as I was waiting to do a balancing sheet with an accounting firm over what grants, donations, or capital raising structure were applicable because accepting credit without having a solid plan, ten years for each business projections in increments of time.

PhDApp.org
FabappIO.com
WineNot.mobi (Wine locator app)

Are mine. 

Citynights-media.com is my most longest standing inc, 2003, and I will be hiring for all of my companies, and going through where to put what brick and mortar, and where I can allow people who want to work from home to do so, but studies recently released have shown that you do better when you have an official place to work, and it is not exclusively at home, so with the latest development of Legacy West, I have been searching for different office spaces, and corporate memberships that allow commuting between cities, in addition to what real estate my company can afford to invest in as part of it's portfolio.

My SMU class ring was being polished while I was in Washington DC, so I have to go pick it up, and meet with a few banking people, kind of low on gas, so yes I have designed an app "related" to gas for vehicles while combining energy efficient things, & in the middle of a disaster, I have been overwhelmed and requested to do things that I would consider beyond my own capabilities, for not believing enough in myself. 

Volunteering for disaster work, has been an experience I would not trade, while I have received the most criticism from someone for not being "rich" enough or "wealthy" enough to volunteer, I essentially told him that he would not pass to sign my prenup, and his flaunting his items, or his Rolls Royce being present in a gossipy column about me, is defamation of character, and I will let others assist me in doing something about that, I don't spend a lot of time reading tabloids or gossip online, but I did defend at first the owner of a gossip columns free speech until him and his wife started coming around shaking on their phones doing God knows what stalking me, and I am ridding myself of anyone who would attack me to harm me, whether it be physically, or digitally, when those people have been persistent in trying to use my like image without my permission on multiple occasions which is incorporated through protection- it is kind of a scenario that yes I initially give the argument, that well, you can say whatever you want about me, but when you send people into my classrooms that you are paying to degrade me online, you are actually trespassing on my education from any distractions that I may ensue having to argue for you with freedom of speech initially until I ask for you and your organization to stop, and instead you attack me further- that is your own responsibility that I have no claim in being responsible for your repeated actions.

On a lighter relationship note, I have mentally broken up with a former professor where we were flirting at work after he was no longer my professor. 

I am hopeful someone is interested in marrying me in the enduring term for an extended period of time.