I meant to upload this after taking notes during the Honorary Degree Symposium, Creating Impact in Global Health, Solving health problems on a local and global scale.

Sponsored by: SMU Center for Global Health Impact, World Affairs Council of Dallas Fort Worth. (Click on document to read?)

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I have had a rather emotional past couple of weeks, taking a week off to be my own attorney, a few weeks going over the tragedy of the Dallas Shootings, that also had violence spreading to neighbor cities in other states, political drama dominating the news feeds, & fighting off threats from an ex who refused to comply with custody orders and sent people to attack me, for the most part, while changing the subject when checking on my child to make sure he is not in harms way, having to have police assistance, called out employees on their shit and cussed some of them out after having taken their gossip and targeted as a source of interest for a number of years finally took a toll with the turmoil of dealing with painful memories of events that they had no right to bring up, going through a mediation with them through a department, in essence, finding my calm after the storm.

I promised to write about a general theory for the public on #Autism for the #PegasusBall and #AutismAwareness, I have done previous presentations on #Schizophrenia in class through a rolling audio and powerpoint presentation, sort of like a prezi, however, this is just a general observation, after being asked to outreach to the population of the #AutismSpecturm.

I have probably met, interacted, observed, and taken out to socialize, at least 12 people who have been diagnosed or as identifying as having a form of #autism. The general idea was that they could meet each other and talk about their similarities, struggles, and so forth. Some of them had #aspergers where it was very habitual with their schedules and difficult for them to speak or communicate, one person of which probably had a touch of william's syndrome. 

I took one of the guys who was dyslexic and identified as being a Messianic Jew, to the Bridwell Library so he could look at some of the preserved doctrine from different errors, which was difficult for me to explain to him and I asked him to seek his own answers over the subject, primarily because his belief system encompasses both pre-Christ, during the Christ-era, and for most Jewish studies, they do not recognize Jesus Christ as "THE Messiah" where the majority of Christianity embraces it.

Some of the kids who have been autistic have also been teenagers or children, I would say that the brain of someone who qualifies under an Autism Spectrum, leaving out social Anxiety Disorder (a form thereof that involved paranoia and mimics schizophrenia I have already researched to give a presentation on) that if you, having no knowledge of the capacity of the brain, imagine, the brain as a hardwired computer just running on it's own, storing things in the hippocampus for the basal ganglia, where instead of pruning wires they no longer use, an autistic brain, maintains the same infrastructure, and has to bounce all of those signals, all over the brain, the firing and connectivity take longer to process in some areas, affecting everything from memory, to sexuality, to day to day functioning, and movement, as well as habits. Anyone who has ever met an autistic person, or a certificate autistic researcher who has a touch of autism himself, can probably attest to their rapid machine like logic without much emotion, it is more difficult for some of them to dance when they are first learning, they have to be latched on to their own obsessions to form a habit, but once they have that habit locked in, you won't be able to deter them from their expertise. It is like having a heavily ADD introvert completely absorbed in a function of an activity or moment, that they lose all sense of time, their uncomfortability of speech, or pattern recognition in other's body gestures, comes off as a calculation for them to understand and reciprocate a gesture, or to use to their advantage to master your behavior so it does not appear that they are overly timid or shy in nature.

Most of the time their eye movements having to look away from you to speak, is because it feels rough for them to be stared at, it is not a guilty response, & some of the best computer programmer's I have heard, have a form of autism, because they had dealing with people, they would much rather talk to a computer, so sometimes if you have ever dated an autistic computer programmer you would not be able to compete with their work, & they have to be instructed heavily on what is ethical and non for being asked to do things, so people do not overly taken advantage of someone who is just a hacking grounds of knowledge who prefers to have less human comfort than the average, but none the less, could use without the passing of judgment the #WorldDoesntUnderstand 

The restrictive or repetitive behavior https://autism-center.ucsd.edu/what-causes-autism/Pages/fmri.aspx can be seen from where it lights up in the brain during the activity.

http://atcoftexas.org/ 

https://www.utdallas.edu/news/2016/4/26-32024_Engineering-Professor-Students-Help-Teens-with-Aut_story-wide.html

I would not say that I have had similar experiences with the schizophrenic population as I have had with the autistic population, even though some of their characteristics mimic one another with social dysfunction. I had a guy with schizophrenia decide that since I wore his favorite designer, it meant I was his girlfriend, which he did not tell me, he told everyone else, and the school administration had to take me aside and sit me down and explain his disorder to me. He had the permanent mind of a teenager, with other positive symptoms present for hearing and visual that was amplified by chronic risk taking behavior and drug use. Some of the people who have been diagnosed as having a form of Autism, feel convinced when they are told they are more social for doing illicit things, that it helps them, and I have not seen any studies that support it other than peer-pressure works wonders when you don't know any better.

So here in these photos, me in the #WhiteCoat is actually a fundraiser pre-Pegasus Ball #PegasusBall, in conjunction with #RoundupforAutism #binzario #couture who hosted the event, along with a few of my friends, who do their own social chairing for events in the Dallas area. One of which will be hosting the SPCA where I will need to find a date, the #Furball will be in September on the 24th.

Underneath are two photos of my son, Joseth, no he does not have #Autism, but he is aware of what Autism is, he spent some time with two guys who both have a form of Autism and played video games with them, one of which had Asperger's.

The doctor at UTSouthwestern is from another University who came to give a presentation ages ago, it has been so long, probably 6 or 7 years! (I think he was from a northern university anyways, I could be wrong it has been that long, I could have sworn he came down from Harvard or some research facility in that tri-cities arena.

Abigail Disney at the Crescent. She spoke at Eddie Bernice Johnson's Women for a World of Peace, and we learned a lot about Abigail's passion for women and where they stood in War Zones. I have felt a little like the #DallasShootings have put a lot of us on the defense from terror, and into our own #Warzone, so it is optimistic to note that Terror Does Not Last Forever... http://www.pbs.org/wnet/women-war-and-peace/

With Hillary Clinton being the first women to make it to the Presidential Nomination Ballet, America for me has become closer to being competitive in a role where other Prime MInister's are also women, Head's of State, that sort of thing. I remember asking in the 2nd grade why there was not a girl/woman as President, and the response from some of the schools instructors for those of us who live the future is normally that we are crazy. I normally say that It think I should be the first female president of the United States for my political views on Facebook, primarily because I want women and girls to know that it is ok to think, it is ok to learn what it takes to become a public servant, & I am happy that there are women who are in public servant positions in the Republican, and Democratic parties. I was happy when Ted Cruz asked Carly Fiorina to run with him as Vice President, I think it is important that there be options for women to be whatever they want to be no matter what.

http://www.womenintexashistory.org/timeline/#to2000
http://texaspolitics.utexas.edu/archive/html/leg/features/0304_01/gender.html
https://tshaonline.org/handbook/online/articles/pwwzj

I asked Ben Carson what he was going to do about Global Warming since he saw everyone from the perspective of their brain, and not the color of their skin, was my implication. I am working on uploading lectures in another segment of my website, his will be included since I got to ask a question, I did not get to ask the Honorable Right General Governor of Canada a direct question, so I sent him a letter instead, and Harvard Business in Dallas helped organize the event, so he likes letters he stated, so I hope he enjoys whatever I sent.

Mehmat Candace is in front of his artwork *the girls are not the artwork, they are models spray painted to be aliens I am told, it is the computer graphics stand we are in front of. He is a former biology professor, so I found it fitting to include talking about computers as brains for the Autistic population at the beginning of this article.

I had a private conversation about his son to the man in the middle of the right of the photo, whose son was in a car accident and went into a coma. One of our Neuroanatomy instructors formerly teaching who felt it was too much to do so with having to deal with patients and the work load and left UTD for a while, if not forever, was Carlos Marquz Del La Plata. He loves TBI's, he knew he wanted to be able to do neuroanatomy. He also does some form of psychology I am told at one of the clinics. George Albert Aguirre and I had gone to an event where I met the gentleman and we discussed his son.

The "THINKAHEADGROUP.org" is on the next row, where I started to talk to new people about Les Femme Du Monde where I sit as a Liaison for the Children's Health Children's Medical Center.

Annie Benjamin is to the right of the TAG photo, she was formerly on the leadership cert training program at UTD, I got mine after she left the program. Rosalynn Huff is with me at a #NoLabels event where I interviewed Joaquin Castro someone I met while he was a City Council Man during my CCIM luncheon with San Antonio Board of Realtors and that group for www.ccim.com I was sad that Hilary Clinton did not pick his brother Julian, he has a twin brother, or Elizabeth Warren, I do not know much about her choice for Vice President just that I do not care for the 26 year difference in his marriage with his wife, I guess it is her choice though and not mine.

Regina Bruce & Nicole Barrett are with me during a Les Femmes Du Monde meeting. I heard about the Dallas Shootings as I was falling asleep through Nicole Barrett and Dena Miller, their newsfeeds came up through my phone during the attacks.

Parkland is where the map of the world is that I took this photo with on a tour with other students.

All of the colleges, for which I now have all pins for, are for UTSouthwestern here.

I did a live video in the middle of the candlelight vigil and Facebook basically told me to come back that my viewers were waiting because I was not taking comments during that time.

I found out about the Dallas Shootings through friends online, it came up in my news feed, I had just finished a test at 6:00PM that day. July 7th, We Will Never Forget.

I had previously to our Fourth of July Holiday spent time researching Neuroscience and Aerospace Medicine at Camp Bullis, 7000 Acres which is part of the Joint Base San Antonio for Lackland. It is a military site where I stayed in Student Housing. I left there at about 6:30AM and worked in 5 different cities to be at 6:00PM for a class in Frisco, Texas.

I left messages for Detective Ahrens and did not realize she lost her husband until after I thought it was her, so I called out of concern and emergency, then commented for her to disregard the message because it was just some man, then calling to apologize and give condolences for her loss. I responded in a state of shock initially and tried to call back as if I was calm about the situation. Terrorism is not a light matter to take into account for the faint of heart. 

#UTSouthwestern is where I was during the Thanksgiving Square Interfaith Prayers at 1:00PM the very next day.
July 8th

I spent all day Saturday meeting with people during a #HumanRightsDallasSummit where I wrote a proposal for curriculum for a PhD Program July 9th, and I talked about how I could never replace her husband. We held round table discussions and spoke about the shooting, some of the women who had lived through the civil rights movements as well as women's rights movement felt as if their ability to protest had been taken away, not by the police, but by the shooter.

July 10th I worked. I thought about what I could do to honor the fallen. I came up with a solution and called a company to do an engraving on an object. Not sure where to put it...

July 11th We held a Candelight Vigil in front of City Hall. I took pictures and photos of my surroundings, not of any individual people, I did of the building, I tried my best to take photos of the ceremony, and then I woke up crying clutching my white coat in the morning, mourning, and cried so 10 minutes late for my first class July 12.

Immediately drove down to San Antonio, stayed across the street from the courthouse, as we had a hearing and I represented myself Pro Se on July 13th, where I turned around and had to drive back to Dallas.

Along the way I stopped in Temple and Bell County to rest, and driving back home was a 7 hour trip because of exhaustion, I have called and checked in with many counselors many times throughout this process, psychological interviewing and counseling sessions are fairly common during times of tragedy and I support people talking about their emotions and saving other's lives from them being able to do so in a confidential format for everyone.

I took a five hour nap in the middle of the day after class yesterday. When we are on long shifts working, we are ordered and required to get rest. It is especially needed during times of tragedy where emotions are high, some actions have to be delayed for safety reasons, and one of my thoughts about everyone having to unite together lingers somewhere in between on my walk towards my vehicle after the candlelight vigil. 

​I have not taken care of myself solely, I have checked in with people, and my stream-of-consciousness, & I have been physically nauseous at times for the travel, stress, and so forth.

I have called my EAP, and asked questions relating to the press, and I have not done anything against any advice, I have made controversial statements, as well as showing both sides of an argument, & listed phone numbers for the public to call for their mental health emergency needs, or where they can also find help, take shelter if their situation arises it for the matter.

I will publish a list of upcoming articles should that help, and am updating websites that right now are being transferred. 

Thank y'all for reading and interacting with me online, in person, what have not. 
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