I thought that when we scheduled publications, it didn't publish until we submitted the article, but that doesn't look like the case here.
Let me see if I can find it and republish it without it sounding so dark and dreary because we are all coming out of a pandemic.
It is 3:21 AM on my computer. I do not know if that is the real time of where I am traveling from because I think that is still on Central Time Zone.
I have been counting how many times I have powered my phone down being available for on call appointments in the past 2 years, and I am up to about 57 times in the 700+ days.
On my agenda for today, is shopping for newer insurance and reading medical articles after I check in with going over my mental health (I know that might sound silly that I have a folder dedicated to my own mental health) but you would be surprised after visiting some States and Cities where their policies come from for "Mental Hygiene" & while I am no longer in love with studying the intricacies of psychiatry or psychology to become a psychiatrist or a psychologist, I think that 2020 was a challenging year for all of us, and having to listen to people make stuff up about what I am thinking when it is not what I am thinking, because I document what I am thinking, or someone physically, mentally, emotionally, or whatever attack me over what I am thinking- it is kind of unusual for me to have to rebuttal arguments about the make versus female brain, or am I transgender because I am thinking like a man, am I a man or a woman today? Rumors all over the internet. Guilt by association because I gave a presentation in Dr. Carlos Marquez De La Plata's class on Schizophrenia in Neuroanatomy- all of a sudden, even though I don't meet the criteria, I do not have any positive or negative symptoms or delusions, etc- then I have to be a schizophrenic because I gave a presentation on schizophrenia, or I am Bipolar because I wrote a song with someone over the characteristics of Bipolarism, the list goes on and on.
I am going over my notes of "Mental Homeostasis" and where I consider it to be safe to be drug-free, substance free, and have a sense of normalcy to be in a safe place to review any emotional turmoil from traumas.
They have a "In Doubt Write It Out" saying when you are figuring out a decision for piloting an aircraft.
There is something tangible to be able to document your thoughts to see where you were thinking a certain way or to challenge yourselves on your fears, and it is a skill to be able to look at yourself and understand where, who, what, when, and why you were having doubts, or fears, or what have not.
I do not believe that I have any special skills in order to hear things that are not there, I know some people who preach that they are connected to God for a higher connection of spirituality and that it is a magical way of thinking, I do not believe that I possess any of those skills.
Barely if ever, do I even listen to my own self since for a song I wrote or created in front of people. I do not have an adoration for hearing myself talk in the sense that I can tell I did more so as a youth being able to speak and just trying to make something up to see whether or not I could come up with something fast enough to guess and see if anyone would believe me or if I would blatenly (not sure how to spell that word, oh well I need a secretary and my own copy editor) if I would make up a word that did not exist and attach it to a meaning, we would have fun being confident in an argument seeing if someone would agree with our line or arguing even with a word that didn't exist, and as a child or a teenager when you are developing a vocabulary and it is a split second to recreate your shortfalls by making up new words, it was amazing to see people do that, but as an adult, if I am going to make up a word, I am not going to do it just to fill in the blank to win an argument even if I know I am wrong or I do not know the ansawer.
I am much more comfortable having a sense of wellbeing in knowing that there is no harm in admitting that you do not have all of the answers and that you do not know.
I also, have grown into admitting when I am wrong. I outright just do it when I catch and I see it, and I am fine with that.
In one of the hospitals where I documented working with people all around me in a more mental type if a way, I actually used a habit from doctors that I did not know what a real thing by the way they would write out certain things, because it had been so long looking at their type of notes, or counting interactions of change within someone's responses in an emotionally charged environment, that I had forgotten some actually used to do that, until I visited another museum that deals with physicians and saw it again, and remembered conversations asking questions about their notes in the prescriptions.
I used to be allergic to everything, so I grew up having to fight all kinds of allergies, and the vaccine that I took in Dallas, Texas for the Pfizer shot was more like getting a steroid booster from the ingredients I read and I personally had no side effects but I was listening to everyone saying how sick we were going to get taking the vaccine & so I was waiting around after I got both of the shots for it to knock me off my ass & not be able to move or something, and that never came, and so I was just like- well that must have been a rumor.
I am reading some mental health considerations from the World Health Organization. There are some typos, but overall you can understand what they are saying. Careers is misspelled from Care-givers essentially in talking about taking care of children.
I wrote out a cognitive intervention outline for writing music but it seems like it is such a simple task to do in order to put all of your emotionally charged writings to one side of the paper and then go through it's structuring and rewrite it into a song, but I also have taken tips from challenging negative thoughts, and have had some friends that fought addictions for a considerable number of years in which I do the same thing in telling them to write out what they are thinking on the negative side of the paper that is putting them into feeling like they are going to relapse and countering those arguments.
I thought I had a mental health wish list somewhere, I guess I don't.
You know I didn't even realize one of my computers didn't have an attached DVD CD ROM player in it, I have been working on other things and downloading everything I needed.
One of the disks one of the hospitals gave me had sonogram pictures but the rest of the data they notarized didn't even work. I had to borrow an attachable player in order to view some of the data.
It is Victoria Secrets Pinks collection.
Oh yeah I was going to find the other article I published that sounded like I was falling off the face of the planet worried about the economy and never being able to do the Global thing again in ever visiting other countries when the pandemic is over.
Let me publish this at 4:06 AM April 29th, 2021 and find the original article.